they say that time, heals everything.
but they don't know you,
and the scars you bring.
so, how come when i reach out my finger,
it feels like more than distance between us.
here i go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you.
you are my only one.
i let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you.
you are my only, my only one.
now there's gravel in our voices,
glass is shattered from the fight.
in this tug of war, you'll always win,
even when i'm right.
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music speaks for my sad, pitiful soul now. the only one who knows my problems is me. i know there's things fucking up every now and then but there's nothing i can do... i watch my heart slowly shattering into pieces and then get back together and the vicious cycle goes on and on. my mind and soul is treating me like i'm an asshole because i don't speak up about things that are... well, unpleasant.
mind and soul keeps telling me, "go 'head! speak up mate" - i can't. i fucking can't.
everytime i feel like i have to explain myself i stop. because if i have to explain myself to the people i love, it's just bad. they should already know and understand my good intentions of doing things and why i always do this and that and stay silent.
i don't see the point of explaining myself, baring my heart because people will still judge you for whatever things you do. i always say, go ahead let them judge i don't give a fuck. if they understand and if they truly know, they really do.
shouldn't people understand people?
why can't we all fucking stand on a grey scale, and go into other people's shoes and understand them? do you get what i mean?
if i tell you that i am unhappy because of 1) first reason, 2) second reason and so on - that's all you'll get from me. i don't want to explain why i am unhappy, because i already gave you the reasons. i don't want to explain because i know and understand why you do this and that and whatever i say/explain will become nothing because, like i said, i know why you did this and that.
i am completely understanding if you don't get what i mean... i just needed to type it down.
goodnight.
