amazing enough, the blog is pretty much designed to my liking. never knew blogger.com would be so advanced now! just a few clicks and now i lalaloveeee my blog layout.
and oh about like 65% of me leaving one blog after another because i couldn't get my blog to be nice, symmetrical or perfectly aligned... or weird colours and stuff. but now i'm so proud of myself. hahaha.
so anyway, if you wanna know what i'm up to lately, i'm going to tell you nothing. yeap, i've been up to nothing and basically just living my life as a junkie bum. it seems like very bad thing with people.
a lot of people i know feel that they need to work to survive, they need to work to shop, they need to work to get the latest gadgets, shoe designs and blah blah blah I SAY FUCK YOU. sorry, i don't mean to be mean but really, tiring yourselves out just to fulfil your sick materialistic dreams, it's fucking sick. but if you're working to get by day by day, i salute to you.
i know not getting a job pretty much sums up to me as a lazy person but hey, i won't deny that. i also won't deny that i'm living off my parents for now because my school life is half-fucked. i'm not sure of the weird schedules because i only have a module this year (hey also part of the reason why i can't find a job, i have to go back school sometimes, weird times).
so there was one day, clif's friend, also my newly made friend, he had this thought that "singaporeans are mostly very lazy".
without even having second thoughts about anything at all, i told him, "hey i am lazy!" (LOL). but my beloved boyfriend defended me (but it wasn't like any debate or whatever, we were just discussing).
he said, "estelle is a very simple person."
can you hear my heart sizzling because it just melted?! WOWZAAAH.
then it made me realise how simple of a person i am. i don't work because i have nothing that i truly want (coughs, some, girls, want, prada). i have no urge to shop every single day, um, i rarely shop. i eat simple. i draw. i write. i listen to songs. i play with my doggy. i play ps3. do some work from school. live my days like that.
and you fucking know what? i'm happy. i feel like i don't need money. it's true, sometimes i go out and then i spend my sister's, my mum's, my dad's, my boyfriend's money. but i don't ask for a lot. pay my meals... i have to eat.
if i work, meals are so fucking expensive everywhere. i get paid peanuts for tough work. ---- I DON'T GET WHY people do this! especially when you're young because you're supposed to live your life happily for now!
i've no qualms about having no money. i wear simple. i don't complain much.
just frustrates me how people just think about MONEY, MONEY MOEMTMOOMNEY OMNEYY and working.
money does not make you happy. sure, you buy your shit you be happy. i just don't get it that most people work to splurge it all over again on expensive things. most working people i know are so unhappy. they need to let loose, be simple, be happy.
yah, i know not all people are like that. but i just wish that people would be more simple, be carefree, complain lesser, go plant plants! go paint! go walk your dog! go suntan! read newspaper and mock at stupid writers! go listen to your guilty songs! (songs that you LOVE but afraid to tell the world) go draw! go chinatown and walk! go eat alone and appreciate things around you!
i mean i'll work but that's in the future... it will come, i know it will. why start now? i love being carefree. heck i would roll all over the grassfield outside my house. are you fucking jealous?
all i'm saying is, don't think about money for a day. spend it with your partner, parents, at home, reading a book blah blah blah.
i know i'm an asshole, i know why i don't wanna work. but i'm happy.
are you?
